我...我...我...不懂什么啦！

我去到前女友的学校了。 不懂做么，我一直对她很好奇。 虽然说我们分手了，但是我还是那么的关心她。 是我自己不想开始新恋情的。 我的心真的不定啊！ 我想拥有，但是又怕受伤。 因为很快就会发现对方的缺点。 二来我都没有经济来源，自己都养不活了，还想养多一个。 除非真的可以找到一个爱的人多过爱我的钱的人。 你知道吗？我的心很乱耶。 我想是喜欢上她了。 我读过很多感人的爱情小说，为爱牺牲。每看一次，都觉得眼泪要流出来酱子。为什么我却将遇不得酱的爱情？ 其实当我的心一空，我就想拥有新的恋情，但是可遇不可求啊！就算想拥有也不是见一个爱一个的。年龄不是问题。只要她真的爱我就够了。当我看了那些小说后，我觉得自己错失了很多好好爱一个人的机会。我机会放几则在部落格。我觉得我对好几个人动心了，可是我不懂他们对我的感觉。很想拿去勇气去问个清楚。我是懦夫。我搞不清楚我的感情世界。我怕会伤了别人的心。 表错白会让我面红，不敢再面对那位女生。告诉我，我应该怎么办？

我想叫你宝贝

我很想喜欢她，可是我怕那只是我多情。 可能一切都是我自作多情。爱一个人很难的，我都不懂我爱的是谁。很想有个人爱我。让我也可以好好的爱她，可是我又怕不能好好爱一个人啊。如果你也想要我爱你的话，可以告诉我吗？让我们彼此相爱。真的很想拥有你。我的心现在都空着。等待着一个特别的你，知道你是谁吗？让我幸福好吗？我的心一直都对你有一些感觉，可能是我真的很复杂吧。让你不敢靠近。但是我也真的太胆小了吧！我怕被拒绝。很丢脸的。没关系啦！等我哪天勇敢了，我就告诉你吧。等我咯。。。明知这样不行，也想试一试。。 但是又怕失败，我真的是一个懦夫。。









cool ma? so dangerous to take a photo when driving..

last week

long time do not post blog le.. my computer was repaired for one week already... without 'her' really boring.. i miss 'her' so much
leh.. oh my dear.. at last you came back also.. haha.. many things happened last week.. Monday, i lost my important documents.. all my documents like ic, student id, bank card, lessen were lost.. made me afraid.. fortunately, my card holder was picked up by one of the lecturer and then he send to my school office.. Wednesday was our group presentation.. hubungan etnik.. dead la.. i don't know how to present la.. at last the day was gone.. Friday i wait for my brother after school.. because i want to use his car Saturday.. haha.. i went to teluk intan leh.. to meet my friends.. three are at bidor ones.. two of them i never seen before.. then we three went to teluk intan to find the pig.. the one so pig loh.. and find another one, who stayed near to the pig.. but oh, very bore la.. no place to visit.. we go all of the super market only.. and oh, the pig yo, forgot to bring us to eat the famous bau at there loh.. stupid pig.. me arrived home at the midnight.. very tired when driving.. haha.. luckily, i dont not accident.. Sunday i returned the car to my brother, then i walk around the wangsa maju.. then nothing la.. and start new day today.. bore, bore, and bore.. booooooooring......

my second love..

i'm a weak guy..

TODAY SWIMMING GOT TEST.. FEEL LIKE I CAN PASS IT LA.. BUT THE RESULT HAVEN'T KNOW YET.. DRANK MUCH OF THE SWIMMING POOL'S DIRTY WATER.. HAVE NO CHOICE.. BECAUSE DON'T KNOW HOW TO SWIM.. ME REALLY WEAK IN SPORT.. LIKE THE BASKET BALL ALSO.. NEVER GOT THE CHANCE TO TOUCH THE BALL WHEN THE GAME.. NEVER MIND.. BECAUSE I'M REALLY NOT EXCELLENT ONE.. HAHA.. NO GENG..

today's feeling-----tired

many people saw my blog with the smoke picture then will say me actually is smoking people.. but I'm really just for play play only.. that day really feel pressure.. never mind.. but now is damn busy about the study.. all the assignments need to rush to finish it.. because I'm last minute guy.. everything do at last minute.. have to change myself.. now feel so free.. but it's no good for me.. i don't want alone anymore.. but what can i do? i don't know.. i want a girl friend.. please! me really tired to face love already..but........ i don't know how to spread out my feeling.. I'm really no good.. I'm a playboy..

something special that day..

that Sunday, i had took a cigarette.. she was said that she used up one week's time to think about our relationship.. that was the special day. maybe that day me think about the problem also. i were got the answer from her. that me don't take care our love. sure i think so. i think that me haven't play enough.I'm really a playboy. sorry, because hurt you so much.

我的感觉

还以为不会伤心，原来要很久后，回想以前的点滴，心就开始伤… 伤心… 失去了我真的很伤心啊…

sorry, i don't know-----love

just now, at 8.30 a.m., my girl friend was said to me that we break. T.T.. she is now become my ex-girl friend already. i don't know what's the matter? she only said that nothing happened. but we are now suitable. i don't know why? I'm no much sad. compared with my last time's break. yan ling, sorry. i do not love you more. forgive me because i can't make you blessedness. she said she used up a week to think about me and her. at last, she make the decision. also she said she can't accept my life. am my life is complex. i think it will be also. my life really complex. i came back to alone now. my life already black. don't get any light, don't have any colour. so far, i already got 3 ex-girl friend. with 9 months continuously, about 3 months, me change my girl friend once. but i think that I'm love the second one much a bit. until now, i feel regret also. maybe she is just stay around my school. so every time i go to the college, i will think about her. sorry to all, ping, pei and ling.. sorry because i don't know how to love you. sorry because I'm childish. sorry because i don't know-----love.

love

爱的感觉总是在一开始时甜蜜…总觉得多了一个人陪…多了一个人帮你分担你的烦恼…你终于不再孤单了…因为至少有一个人会想着你…恋着你~只要能在一起就是好的…但是慢慢的…随着认识的加深…你开始发现了对方的缺点…于是问题一个接一个出现…你开始觉得烦、累…甚至想要逃避~其实爱情就像磨石子一样…有人总想捡到一个适合自己的石子…但你又如何知道什么时候能够捡到呢?或许刚捡到的时候…你不是很满意…但是请记住人是有弹性的…很多事情是可以改变只要有心、有勇气~与其到处去捡未知的石头…还不如将自己已拥有的石头磨亮磨光…你明了吗?别把随地的未知石头都捡起…珍惜你所拥有的…这就是恋爱的开始…不要随便牵手~更不要随便放手~

lover

有些路，走错了，并不一定没有好处。它可以让你见识到更多的地方、文化。可能以后你要到的地方，就在那里。。 爱情也一样。

有些人，爱错了，你可以从中知道自己的短处，以及时修补，下一个更可以爱他多一点。。

错路不要走酱多，你会疲累。爱人也一样。。 珍惜现在你爱的，不要等到错过了，才来后悔。。

=喜欢，是浅浅的爱;爱，是深深的喜欢=

¥拥有时，请不要轻易放过;失去后，得到更多…¥

£珍惜眼前这份缘，不要以为还有很多机会。时间，不会为任何人停留。£

¤爱，是一场两个人互补的游戏。¤

@懂得放下，才会拥有。@

^^不舍，何来得？^^

my ex-girl friend

i`m seldom online. so i don`t know what happened at the websites. just now, i search and reach my ex-girl friend`s blog. i knew all the things. why i`m too easily to lost my love. i`m really be repentant of this. love, love, love. i really don`t know how to love. i really don`t want to talk about love, but i can`t. i need it.